An event in my life that has impacted it enough to inhibit my happiness was someone who I care for and loved a lot breaking my trust multiple times which now has made me paranoid, stressful, and second-guessing. Last year and part of this year this person who I care for and loved a lot was talking to multiple girls at my school and some from Texas and other places in a way he should have been only talking to me. I used to trust people and not be paranoid all the time about everything. I used to be happy and have a non-stressful relationship, but he made me not be able to trust anymore because every time I try to believe him or give him another chance, it blows up in my face and I'm the one looking stupid. All i used to do is think about who he's with, what's he doing, where is he, and who he's talking to. Just knowing that he was talking to someone at my school gets under my skin and irritates me. I see this girl in the halls all the time and wonder what did he see in her that he does not see in me. It makes my self esteem low and I try to forget about it, but I can't help but wonder. When I would confront him about it he would get all defensive and irritated. Just recently I confronted him about that same girl and he lied in my face and told me he never talked to her and that he does not know her. He got so mad he called me an idiot saying that I have no idea what I'm talking about when I do. I have proof of the messages he sent her and other girls trying to get them to have a relationship with them. I don't know what I did to deserve that. He always seemed to treat those girls better than me when I'm the mother of his child. Those other girls weren't there for him through what he went through. I'm the only one that was there when he was down and crying. No other girl seen him cry but me. There was never a reason for him to treat me like this and do that stuff to me. Now, I guess he seen that he was breaking my heart more and stressing me and our son out because he stopped talking to those girls like that and now he tells me he loves me and wants to be with me and only me, he tries to hug on me and tries to do everything he should of been doing from jump. I hate that he's so two-faced with me. I don't want a relationship like this, but i have to have some kind of communication with him for our son. for me to stay with him he'd have to be dedicated to his family, be the "husband" he should be, stop talking to other girls, and be committed to me, and communicate with me. Anyways ladies, don't you agree that an event in your life like your man cheating can takes months maybe even a year to get over, but it will always come back up in an argument. Also never let a man treat you like your nothing or make you fell undesirable, ugly, and have low self-esteem because there's always someone who will treat you like their queen no matter what.